My body hates me. The baby is killing it right now. Her or she can really kick now and loves to cause bruising to my stomach and lungs. My back feels like its breaking into two parts. But at the same time, I love feeling Bella or Aiden kick. Its amazing that he or she is that big now. I can't wait to meet him or her. I also love the names we picked....Sybella or Aiden.
My head also hurts, but from other things. Ryan vs dero part 5432: Ryan wants a baby. He's very very focused on it. Baby baby. He talks about it enough to drive me crazy. He wants one now, but I just can't do it now. I asked him to wait untill after I have this baby. He said he would, but he really doesn't want to. I know I'm hurting him. But at the same time, we haven't even had sex yet. I freaked out about getting off the first time with him. Let alone sex....and a baby. But he wants this so bad. And I know how it feels to want a baby that bad. So I do want to give him this. And I'd love to have a baby with him at some point.....

So I'm 20 weeks pregnant now....half way. In 20 weeks ill have a little boy or girl. The doctor said I was almost to the weight I'm supposed to be and the baby is develping normally, which made me estatic. I've been worried about that after the whole bed rest thing. The last few days I've really popped out more I think. And my back hurts like a bitch. Dero got me a yoga for pregnancy book and we did it today. It helped a lot.
I can't wait to meet the baby and can't keep my hands off my stomach. Just thinking of him or her makes me so happy.